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I'm baaaack. It was... like usual but for some reason I feel it worse year after year.
Maybe it's cause I'm the youngest child in my family now. And I'm 17. No need to keep the magic, huh? All we have now is some presents (not even suprises anymore cause nobody bother finding anything for me, I got some money and have to spend it for myself), alcohol on the table and lots of food. If not Christmas tree and Home Alone in TV I wouldn't even notice it's not any other time in the year. We don't even have much snow in this part of Poland. Something is missing. And I'm the infidel there, haha.
I feel like I lost something on the road here.
In general I feel bad cause I had too much time for thinking and it never ends good.
Oh, and I still can't draw shit but now started caring about it which prolly isn't a good way.
And whole family thinks I'm going to draw for living. If I don't decide to be a doctor(or anything around cause I know how hard it is), but still it's like the second choice. Well, thanks mum. I thought you tried hard enough to put any thoughts about it out of my mind and it worked, I already decide it's only a hobby, I'm going to study something else etc etc AND NOW WHOLE FAMILY KNOWS from YOU that I'm still thinking about art school? Wait what.
Maybe I was supposed to object and do whatever I wanted? Or maybe something suddenly changed but why I don't have any idea about it?
I feel like somebody opened old wound. One of deepest ones I ever had in my short happy life.
Nothing more to say, hope you have a good time
Lynx
Maybe it's cause I'm the youngest child in my family now. And I'm 17. No need to keep the magic, huh? All we have now is some presents (not even suprises anymore cause nobody bother finding anything for me, I got some money and have to spend it for myself), alcohol on the table and lots of food. If not Christmas tree and Home Alone in TV I wouldn't even notice it's not any other time in the year. We don't even have much snow in this part of Poland. Something is missing. And I'm the infidel there, haha.
I feel like I lost something on the road here.
In general I feel bad cause I had too much time for thinking and it never ends good.
Oh, and I still can't draw shit but now started caring about it which prolly isn't a good way.
And whole family thinks I'm going to draw for living. If I don't decide to be a doctor(or anything around cause I know how hard it is), but still it's like the second choice. Well, thanks mum. I thought you tried hard enough to put any thoughts about it out of my mind and it worked, I already decide it's only a hobby, I'm going to study something else etc etc AND NOW WHOLE FAMILY KNOWS from YOU that I'm still thinking about art school? Wait what.
Maybe I was supposed to object and do whatever I wanted? Or maybe something suddenly changed but why I don't have any idea about it?
I feel like somebody opened old wound. One of deepest ones I ever had in my short happy life.
Nothing more to say, hope you have a good time
Lynx
Hello, is there anybody in there?
I'll be most probably putting all my gallery in storage soon. If you happen to like anything that was put there, you might want to save it before it happens. I've lost some gift art over the years and I know how it feels.
I know I never got to know any of my watchers here. I remember many of you fondly, and if there is one thing I regret - it was staying silent. If you feel like talking to me for whatever reason, get on my notes so we can find a way to talk more often. I'll be actually visiting dA in following week to leave some stuff behind - after that, I have no idea.
L.
Am I back?
Maybe. Kinda. Possibly.
Anyone still remembers me? How are you doing guys?
L
My List of Wishes for Bikini Exchange
For the #PervySisters (https://www.deviantart.com/pervysisters) exchange!
Lady I would like to see drawn is Cyan
Or Ula
I can do a digital piece of whatever gender and theme
should I still post sketchdumps?
I honestly have no idea. There are still loads of sketches I have nothing to do with...
I need your opinion guys, if any of you are still here! Let me know if you liked them, and I might still post one from time to time.
L.
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You need a hug I know exactly how you feel dear, it´s the most horrible thing.
I really wish I could help you but I don´t have any solutions either. I should write applications today and just feel like every decision is wrong. Would you like to be a doctor or do something in the medicine area?
I really wish I could help you but I don´t have any solutions either. I should write applications today and just feel like every decision is wrong. Would you like to be a doctor or do something in the medicine area?